I had you all wrong
You were looking out for me this whole time
Loving me in nature’s way
Planting those seeds I cruelly called lies
When I should have been trusting you all along
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Cannot leave just yet
Cycles repeat and repeat
So much left unsaid
Beast howling
It’s furious tantrum
Reverberates through my skull
It may not be real
But today I made it just real enough
To feel it in my teeth
December 20, 2024
Sunrise not yet here
Moon asks if they’ll die with me
Secret words hidden
No need to catch my eye
I can see you in my periphery
The outline of your shapes
Edges of your straights
Shadows of your curves
I don’t need to stare to see you
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Tongue up my spine
Coursing over my shoulder
Along my neck
Down Between my collarbones
Down
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The cat looks so comfortable now
Cuddling on my husband’s lap
(It’s his turn now)
She stares at me
With eyes squinted just a little
She’s completely at ease
We love you, I tell her
Then I tell her
I’m sorry you couldn’t stay with your first family
I’m sorry your first human died
But I promise you
We will love you for the rest of your life
She resumes her grooming
Melted across his legs
Clearly, she is home now
Here, with us
And we are happy
December 19, 2024
Words take flight
Despair clouds vision until
With joy they return
Tide under high moon
In a flash of renewed need
Metaphors appear
Moon across sky
I look down surprised to see
I wrote love again
They’re racing out from inside me
Extensions of my hidden things
Bursting from seed you plant
Sprawling ivy clinging to stone
Sunflowers turning to face the sun
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